Holding Pattern

When showing up is showing your face

I’d say the world feels like a lot, but we all know that, right?

I mean, it is SO MANY things, like ALL the time.

I've recently been struggling with decision fatigue in ways I’ve not experienced in quite the same way before. Especially the smallest inconsequential ones… Like being asked to choose a cafe or restaurant can be debilitating. Even choosing something off the menu when we get there feels herculean, but at least that part will only affect me.

It’s quite the time! Like, do you ever think about how much of a sisyphean task feeding oneself is? It’s times like this I’m grateful I’m not responsible for any other humans or animals.

But all that is to say, I’m still here. Because despite everything, there’s always more to life. As Kate Bush sings:

I just know that something good is gonna happen
I don't know when
But just saying it could even make it happen

And I always have that sensation hanging around. This expectation of something good being on the horizon, if not for me, then for someone I know where I’ll get to witness it.